I've been staying up until four and five in the morning lately. What have I been doing you may ask...lots. I think my creative spirit comes out the most at night. All the the photographs in this post were made last night at ungodly hours, and I'm quite proud of them :) I have been working with lots on the computer. I'm planning to become a more involved creator and artist. I have worked hard to update my DeviantART and Flickr accounts. I have really big dreams and I haven't been working as hard as I should be to achieve them. Almost a week ago I had a phone conversation with my friend Ben and he was talking about how people have dreams but they become stable where they are and talk themselves into believing that their dreams and unachieveable. He furthered it to say that he was sure not everyones dreams always came to be true, and then I got the thought maybe that if a persons dreams did not come true possibly they just didn't want them enough. I want my dreams to come true, and I will do everything in my power to assure that they do. After that, if they still fail to be, then I will rest assured knowing I did all I could. Really though, if you don't give your dreams a good honost try how do you know they won't work?
There are other things that I am doing differntly as well. I want to become closer to the ideal me. I've been practicing piano a lot more, and even scored two new piano books to play out of from my teacher. She also asked me to be in a senior recital, which I am excited about. I'm trying to find something easy enough that I am able to play but somewhat popular. I have also been drawing more and trying to write more on here. I'm reading again too! I finally finished a book, and a big one at that, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, and then my friends and I all went to the midnight showing of the movie. Now I am about 30 pages into Slaughter House Five by Kurt Vonnegut. It's a very enjoyable read thus far. I think I'll read more when I get done with this post!
I also think I am dating one of the more marvelous men in existance. I feel like he helps and pushes me to achieve the things I want to. He tells me not to spend so much time on the comptuer! I need that! I'm getting off soon, promise! He's well thought out, laid back, and down for anything. He and I are extremely goofy and happy. Despite some slight distubances, I am extremely happy and care-free right now! I only wish to get out of the house more, and plan to do so, even if i'm not doing much of anything outside of the house. I feel like I have matured a lot over the summer with my thoughts, but remained true to the fun immaturity that everyone should have.
Until next time!
